I Thought I Could Live In Your Arms

Am I a selfish person?
My boyfriend told me today that he won't be able to see me outside of college for at least a month, basically 13th February the day we go to London for the day [his christmas present to me].I tried to take the news well but unfortunately I HATE HATE HATE not being able to see him, its not like I see him much in college as it is.
So I told him I'd just have to think of it as that we've broken up so I can't even see him anyway. I'm a bitch to him but I can't help it. I really struggle with it. I want him to do well, but I want him to make time for me as well.

Love: making time for someone, whether its five minutes or the whole day.

Anyway these lyrics are really helping me. I know we haven't broken up, but it feels like we're drifting apart anyway. I thought we'd last forever btu I'm realising that never happens with your first love

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"I thought I could live in your arms
and spend every moment I had with you
stay up all n ight with the stars
and confess all the faith I had in you
to late, I'm sure and lonely,
another dream wasted on you"

Mayday Parade - 3 Cheers for 5 Years (Acoustic Version)

- Life is beautiful, sometimes you just have to open your eyes and see it*